Choconat

When I was a child, I am used of eating “Choconut”. While watching television, listening to the radio.. I always have my “Choconut”. And now that I am in college, I never realized that I’m going to be with that “Choconut.” Before, I was interested in the food called “Choconut” but now, I’m actually fascinated in the “Choconat” that I’ve known.

His name is not literally “Choconat”. I just give him a name myself because I don’t like him to know that he’s my crush. I don’t like to mention his name either because I know that it is really obvious and you know him already. People were asking me why I like him. Maybe, you’re curious too. Yes! Definitely, he’s cute. But it is not the first thing that I liked about him. Maybe, he is just that close to me. I like him because he is very talented. He knows how to play the guitar and sing very well. That’s why I got interested with him. I do like him when we were still in first year college. Of course, he ignored me for several times. Because of my classmates’ talkativeness, he knew it. I decided to not to talk to him for a while. But that thing became forever. I have tried many times to make our friendship normal and I tried also to forget my feelings about him but I did not make it. Like what Professor Cañega said, “You cannot forget the person you gave importance to especially when you see and mingle to that person every day.” It’s true. That’s why it is really hard for me to let him go. But, I am still very thankful to have him as my inspiration in life. After our graduation, I think that is the only time that I can let go of him. He is such a flower in the middle of the war that a warrior like me can’t help to fall for him. Meeting him was fate, becoming his friend was a choice but falling in love with him is beyond my control. I know he’s not meant for me. But I believe that we were given two hands to hold, to legs to walk, two eyes to see, two ears to listen. But why is it only one heart? Because the other was given to someone else. For us to find. The greatest thing you'll ever learn is to love and be loved in return. True love cannot be found where it truly does not exist, nor can it be hidden where it truly does. Love is a journey not a destination.

I entitled tis blog “Choconat” because this is for him, obviously. As of now, I enjoy having somebody’s company. And I think it will help me to find ways to let him go.